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(Monday, January 15, 2007-)
+9:13 PM]*
# The Black Lust.-
I did something which i cannot take back.
Desperation drove me to wit's end.
What i felt was simple. Desperation.
At any point, at any angle, no matter how u look at it.
it seems desperate.
Imagine someone daoing u for a wk. Of coz, a certain desperation juz grew in u.
Yes. My tgts let dis thing grow. Hmph. Part of being an emotion based person.
This Thing. i wun say wat.
The thing i am suppose to do is just forget.
Forget it all.
Dam its not goin to be easy but still i have to do it.
Forgiveness? I wun ask for it.
Punishment? I felt like i juz received it.
Repent? Tats something i am waiting to do.
My existence is made of the people ard me.
I lost someone near n dear to me. fine. i.... accept it.
I lost a part of me.
In the past, i lost a few 'parts' of me.
I accepted those losses.
One day, i will accept dis loss but now...
I muz live thru wat i did.
I drove it to sadness.
I drove it to pain.
When i stare at whats behind me, i dun feel staring at anymore.
ADA. Fujitsu S6240.
Hull status: damaged. Base cracked.
Primary protocol functioning at 100%
Systems all go.
ADA. I'm sorry.
Thx hl for listening. Thx wk for helping me out.
I noe whatever i say wun help.
So i wun say anything.
the story ends like this;
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