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(Monday, July 31, 2006-)
+7:54 PM]*
# what a f**ked world we live in.-
ok... i feeling rather confused now. my mind is messed up. m i juz deceiving myself? or is dere someone out dere faking a frenship wif me? shesh. i wan to noe everting. today i begin to see the darker side of me. the not so lame. rather... unsettling side of me. i distrust anyone now. looking back, i dun tink deres any reason for mi to trust anyone. yes. i believe that i was borned into a world of deceit and lies. its a crappy world. no matter hu i wanna help, i have my doubts. but i still do it. its crap. full of dipshit. at least 30 inches high. i need someone to believe in. god? i alredi lost my faith. the onli ppl i put my faith in is frens. appparently, tats not enugh for me. perhaps its me. it is i tat i muz put more faith in. i wan to trust ppl but it always bites back at me. scars r scars that will remain wif u, serving as reminders to what happened and warnings nvr to repeat the same ...mistake twice. should i trust again? but hu? tat remains to be seen la...
anyway, sch as usual. alot of crappy tings happened. my view of the world is constantly changing. n changing for the worst. i muz withdraw myself. its time to revisit an old fren
ah... i wonder if shes free. after all shes goin to have her Os soon.
today. ong xing hao shifts into full gear.
means:
no dota.
no pool.
no bowling.
(wat a boring life)
until aus 23.
i hope everyone understands... its exams eh.
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(Sunday, July 30, 2006-)
+6:24 PM]*
# Sunday Blues.-
yosh. alright back to blog once again.
man i am getting lazier. instead of goin to tkd at 9, i go for the 1030 class. n i reach home at about the same time. which means i m execising less. shesh. dam nxt wk, muz wake up early to execise somemore. haha.
ok enugh about tat. i spend the rest of the afternoon: tinking. most of u tink its impossible but it actually happened. well, i realised i spend my time worrying alot for other people rather than myself. u tink its selfish? well, i duno.
for quite sometime, i felt tat people do not reli care about me. n tat i am putting people's weight on my shoulders. kinda stupid. i still have a future ahead of me... i feel heavy alredi... well, heavy wif worries and self defeating thoughts. its tiring u see...
ah. better stop thinking about u liao. i got a C programming test tat i wanna score in.
i wish tat you could hear, wat i reli wanna tell u and spare a thought for me. dun do it eh.
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+12:17 AM]*
# First internal distress.-
well, i cant stop u.
even though i wan so much too.
i duno how to stop u.
i cannot do wat u wan mi to do.
its kinda ridculous.
u will nvr noe hu u r and i intend to keep it tat way.
h0w much i wan u to juz listen to wat i reli wan to say.
perhaps i am too coward. or if i show too much feeling, would u discover my lie?
tings r perfect on the ouside. broken on the inside. the urge to release watever i kept, held back so much juz to maintain such a stance. ah i wish how the matters of the hearts would be as simple as kicking someone's ass.
perhaps.
maybe.
nope.
never.
u will nvr noe hu u r.
soli.
my heart is not rdy for another shattering...
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(Saturday, July 29, 2006-)
+11:39 PM]*
# boring day.-
oh yes. quite happi to blog. but no topic today dam bored. managed to catch up on sleep. yup. yea. i want to slap shaun for calling mi a za bor. dude noe the diff. big diff eh. i wan to be politicial but deres always the risk of being arrested. shesh. freedom of speak wif constraints? okok too much liao. well, i was actually doin some tinking today. recollect some old memories. bla bla. aiya dammit deres nothing happening lo.
let mi check.
no internal torment.
no interesting tgts.
gosh. dis is bad. turning into a boring person.
mother die shaun. nvr tell mi u pon bowling today if not i ask u out for pool leh... ah shoot.
ok la. my mind is a blank. so i should juz shut up n end the entry.
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(Friday, July 28, 2006-)
+11:59 PM]*
# ECP today! whosh!!!-
yea back from a day at ecp. not bad eh. had fun n all. lol lets start from the beginning.
okok. morning at 800 . woke up n got rdy n stuff. around 910 waited for del's phone call. at around 945 was surprised eh. lol.
to receive a call from randy. yup. as expected(%70) tat del overslept lol. 1000 went to her hse to wake up her personally. lol. her dad came up to the door n ansed it. i felt abit paiseh... becoz when her dad ask mi in, i refused. but when del ask mi, i went in. XD abit paiseh. like listen to her daughter but nvr listen to him XD.
at around 1020, setted off for ECP. on the bus, same usual ting wif del... except today she was like cutting her nails... hmmmmmmmm
on the way into the park, del ask mi buy sugarcane for the gang. guilty conscience lo. PS u still haven pay me yet. on second tgt no need ba...
at 1100 eh met the rest at the food court. eat abit den went cycling for about 2 hrs... saw alot of cool stuff on the route. yup. RC. Cable boarding, etc etc. duno y la mic was always chionging in front of the gang. hmmmm lone rider perhaps?
after tat, went to the beach.. saw ppl being pushed into the water... i sux at volley ball... everyone was dam frustrated at me XD. paiseh paiseh. played in the water for about like 45 min? due to the rain la... dam u rain... anyway eh went to shower n stuff. quite sad la. yx no tower. n we had no soap. bo bian. rinse n go out of the shower. sat in mac den went to arcade played stupid soccer until leg pain. yea. there was cool punching game. del was like pretending to drive a train. mic n june were behind her... playing along? sometimes i wonder if shes reli 16? haha. eh 530 reached marina bay ate steam boat... tok tok tok for about 3 hrs until we decided to go play pool. zzz, drinks costed a bomb la. 6 bucks a jug? yup. randy was cracking his usual lame jokes. Gj was trying to teach the gals to play pool eh quite cool. it was kinda funny eh. some of us were like rushing between TV n pool? eh tat chan 8 show at 9pm which i was always forget the name... shesh. at 1000, left marina. headed home lo. 1130 reached home. lucky nvr tio scolded by mum eh. sleeping XD heng ar... (i noe someone wans to hear wat my mum has to say. haha. too bad :P)
well overall today was quite fun eh. yx's brain was kinda slow or broken today. he couldnt get watever i said la... for example, dis morning, i called him to tell him tat i got sugarcane...
dis is wat happened:
me: hey yx ar i got sugarcane wif me. dun buy drinks.
yx: huh? u make sugarcane from ur hse?
me: no no. i got sugarcane from parkway dere.
yx: ah? u got sugarcane from mac?
me: no la.
del: aiya tell him nvm la.
me: eh nvm la i meet u dere can liao.
yx ar... tortoise is mostly green in colour le... how u could mistake it for a duck!??!??!?! oh dear you man...
apparently, u r not the onli one wif brain spoil eh. mic oso tio. lol. no surprise dere. yup... strong wind cannot fly kite. hmmmm. the kite cannot go up... muz have no wind den use ur mouth blow into the kite den can fly. yup yup. i expect nothing less from the 3 cell gal. lol.
yx i hope u fix ur antenna soon. lol. well, tats all. :P
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(Thursday, July 27, 2006-)
+10:25 PM]*
# Just another day.-
Yea. today as always got sch la. hmmmm.... came in late. nah. dun reli care about tat anymore. quite acustomed to it eh. anyway, after kuanko lesson decided to go makan. yea... oh yes in ELP... ohh.... stupid tings happen.
stupid strike. dun say TP so loud le nxt time. md la... lol ok nvm. if tat dude wanna fight, i have no problems wif it eh. okok. after sch, went to soccer wif the guys. well, juz played lo. it was dam bloody hot lo. drank so much water. haha. eh yea MD found a ball and gave it to me lol. quite cool eh. after sometime the gals join us eh. actually was onli del la but there was an audience lol.
reached home about 3. yea. earliest in a veri long time. had a 4 hour nap. n wake up to blog lo. hmmm tml goin ecp. excited. ok la. so so feeling lo... lol.
btw. nxt time i not goin to tp liao. leave it to shaun or chidam lol.
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+12:06 AM]*
# SHESH. BIG SHESH!-
Oh look! a bonus entry! yea! alright!
okok. for the past few days, i have beared witness to some ridulous tings ppl do over the net. Let mi give u dis example. ok... u see dis gal,,, she wasnt reli happi about some guy telling her a sexual joke. so wat she did was insult the guy over friendster. bombarding him with vulgarites and insults. so much so that it can make outsiders laugh. tat outsider being me.
so for the nxt 3 days, she constantly shot him. man i reli pity the dude. over a lame joke, u tio owned like hell man. Not onli did she insulted him, his name, home and hang outs were revealed. oh man, plz give him a break eh. n finally today, she apologises to him. lol? i mean u trashed tat dude's rep n now u say soli? joking? please la. abit too late. U showed yourself as a veri veri veri petty person. i guess the reason y one can so daring on the net its becoz u dun actually have to face ppl when u say dis kind of insulting tings.
if i were to see u on the street, well dun expect a warm greeting from me la. probably the finger will be sufficient... lol
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(Wednesday, July 26, 2006-)
+10:57 PM]*
# Wats new?-
Yo back again. rather normal day. eh sch as usual... eh after sch went studying wif the gals. brought along bert n randy.
aiyo i went to study for the sake of bert but ehhh.... wasnt reli successful la. i tink he managed to read 3 pages? lol? at least its progress la... better than rotting at home.
eh went to mac to eat n study. read 1 chap n did afew qxn. didnt really study much though. lol wats new?
around 7. left mac. eh went home wif del n randy. had an rather interesting talk... more like insulting... haha. aiya wat to do. i cant change(and stand) the fact she is like tat. lol. cannot tahan so suan lo... lol
arrived home. yea... tried to play dota but singnet still doin shit so my game so dam laggy. ahhhhh.... suppose to play wif strike n MD but eh refused them. my connect is in no shape to play online games. shesh. again, wats new? lol
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(Tuesday, July 25, 2006-)
+11:34 PM]*
# Tired but satisfied.-
Yo. wow my first entry in my new blog n it sounds so negative. shesh. alright. lets get down to business.
well, today was a rather tiring day. Finally presented that stupid C prog project. honestly, the cher didnt noe what the heck quik sort was. So he cannot shoot me. cool eh. well, i tink it was. lol
k afterwards, eh finished the rest of OP speech. Alright. i was rather shocked la. started from the end of the list. i was like lol? okok. i was rather screwed la. missed out some of my speech pt. but after the presentation, sense of relieve. phew. nvr felt tat for a long time liao. lol.
i guess i was rather nervous since i was shaking quite abit. weird eh. i am rather used to toking in front of a crowd but eh i guess out of practise lo. eh yea. tats the highlight of my day.
exhausted. totally exhausted.
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