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(Sunday, December 31, 2006-)
+12:11 PM]*
# Annual Meeting wif Old buddies.-
Well. first of all, i am back from a long absence of blogging~
I shall start wif ytd's happening's.
I mapled until ard 4. den went off to chuan kai's place to meet my childhood frens.
phew. Its been 17 years. From diapers till now. i still rmbing drinking milk wif them~
hmmmmm.
anyway. started to mj at 6. den breaked for dinner. after which, we cont to mj till ard 10. den decided to go for a movie. argh. i tell u. becoz of the stupid earthquake. we couldnt book online via credit card la. shesh. so mi n chinky took his dad's car to buy tickets at marina sq. -.- silly eh. but wat to do. kia no ticket mah. anyway. went back to (HQ). to pick up the rest. took a bus down to bishan n realised tat we missed the last train XD. Bo bian took a cab down to marina. den headed for cine. Watched NATM. again~ but hu cares. when the movie ended. it was ard 230.
lol. quite cool eh. long time nvr hang out wif them for dis long liao. so after the movie. jy n rq went back first. I went back to ck's place n played mj somemore. lol. the taxi driver was a veri interesting person. he laughed during the whole trip back la. quite a nice guy eh. hope deres more of dis kind of pppl ard. brightens up ur day. hehe. anyway, we mj-ed until 5am. den finally went home n sleep. lol.
hope to see them again. XD
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(Tuesday, December 19, 2006-)
+12:22 AM]*
# wats wrong?-
i feel sad. a infinite amount of sadness over comes me as i tink of wat has happened. indeed life is like a roller coaster.
one time u feel like u r living the high life. the nxt, the g force pushes u back. u feel uncomfortable.
den u realise. dam. u r alredi at the bottom of it. feeling down n out.
well. wats wrong wif me? i'm suppose to feel gd. i suppose to feel alive. n yet, i feel tat, ppl ard me r failing me. like when i ask them out, its always no. when i try something, it nvr work out the way i wan to.
now. the problem is wat m i to do?
i am a person hu cannot juz sit here n do things alone. so how?
haiz.
i'm sad. a mop.
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(Wednesday, December 13, 2006-)
+11:35 AM]*
# My agony. Your Misunderstanding,-
I dun noe wat to say. I noe i have been dealt 2 great blows.
One is tat she is goin to aus to study.
The second one is tat i juz lost my best gal pal.
I can onli feel my heart shattering. Over n over again.
In front of me, i see a distant desert. yet my will tells mi to go on. its kinda silly.
The first agony is quite obvious.
The second agony is a long built up unhappiness on her side.
Come lets begin.
The first day, i met her. i had a crush on her. It was silly.
Everyday i tried. I got pushed away. Eventually i turn my eyes away. But my heart, it was still dere. It was wif her. In a way, i grown attached to her as a brother. i felt compelled to be dere for her. Her reliance on me was comforting. So comforting, u can consider it to be a sort of an emotional pillar. Someone tat kept mi getting up. She was someone special in my heart.
after i got over her, we became great frens. i dare not say best frens becoz she wun tink tat way.
Despite all the fights. The constant bickering. I can even recall an incident. I got angry over she not wanting to tok to me in the bus. How i wish i understood earlier tat she wanted to be alone. How i wish tat she needed some space to herself. how i wish tat i knew wat to do. i didnt noe tat my presense was enugh. tat it was comforting to her. how i wish i understood tat earlier.
Anyway, our fights always boiled down to one thing: our misunderstanding.
I told myself. I will try myself to understand her. even if i dun, i will make do it wif it. she has her reasons. I will change myself to suit her. My resolve is iron. I will not give up.
But u see, recently, tat was our last fight. She told me: we cannot be close frens, juz frens.
I was n still am devastated. Heart spilt all over the floor. Juz as i was about to really try. REALLY change and not juz blame, i was cut off. Wat i am left wif is the choice. I duno wat to choose. i am indecisive.
I dun understand u. But i wan to.
My sincerity is dere. Feel it. take it.
Know tat i really wanna try.
I dun expect close frens to be made by juz knowing your name.
Nor izzit made in one day.
Understand my need. Understand my saddness.
For you to let mi try i understand u, i will give anything.
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(Tuesday, December 12, 2006-)
+6:57 PM]*
# Sorry.-
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(Sunday, December 10, 2006-)
+11:18 PM]*
# Random Tgt.-
U noe wat?
Dis sux. Everytime i tink about it.
I feel like everyone around me is letting me down.
As in when they said they will do it, eventually, it didnt happen. So how m i to feel? I ask myself.
I dare say. My record for fullfilling my words is very strong becoz i dun like to get negative reaction from people.
So how izzit tat ppl dun fullfil their words nowadays?
When i say see first, it means 70% can.
When ppl say it, its actually a polite way of rejecting u.
now without any aid, i stand alone.
I cannot count on u anymore..........
i'm sorry.
I begin my journey of solitude.
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+12:56 AM]*
# Haiz.-
I ask myself.
If u dun wanna do it or have no interest in it.
would u go into it n ask about its details?
for me, no.
i mean for wat?
if u duno wanna do it y bother poking further.
its really weird la.
haiz.
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+12:00 AM]*
# Study Study,-
Haish.
Study study.
so sian la.
I duno y but it like as if dis feeling of disappointment follows me along.
Like a perpetual saddnes over come mi when i tink of dis.
haiz.
Reflect.
Tale untold.
Justice undone.
Hate remains.
The Devil grins.
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(Friday, December 08, 2006-)
+8:24 PM]*
# Heart Spilt.-
I got a really bad heart spilt.
One on side its really happy. On the other its really confused.
actually more like disappointed.
On the happi side, it doesnt need explaination.
Those knows, knows.
On the other hand,
I have been feeling abit haish-ish becoz well, i have been trying to do some mending stuff. u noe... trying to get us together, do stuff together. but it seems like everything i try, get rejected. or i put too high hopes on watever it is tat i am hoping for. its not like i expect much. but when i heard anyone say something with some enthu-ness, i really believe tat they will do it. But recently, all my plans have been rejected. as in my offers, at first was answered with a certain degree of enthu. But then, the nxt day, they juz go soli juz dun wan to. I mean it really gets mi down eh. Maybe on my end, i expect too much. Or izzit tat i muz adapt my style abit. Even though i regard dis one as a close fren, i cannot expect everything to be a yes. N yes. I would understand if one is placed under tight circumstances like parents? or maybe Tired. Tat i can sympathise with. But always getting no no no. Its kinda frustrating and saddening at the same time. Haiz.
i duno wat to expect anymore. I dun even feel like trying to do anything. Becoz 95% of the time, it gets rejected in a veri unpleasant kinda way. The simplest of excuses such as "Oh i didnt say yes rite?", "I didnt promise u anything." or "I said see first remember?" makes mi feel like i shouldnt keep my word so often. Becoz quite a number of people are doin it.
The Grinning Devil Shows No Remorse.
The King's plight untold.
Scream.
Heaven's Anguish
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+2:26 PM]*
# Haiz.-
Haiz. Exams are coming.
Superposition n thevein theorem still havent learn yet.
maths oso abit lost. y? no maths texts la.
oh~~~
yes fryous noes alot of things eh.
hehe today learnt how to bypass the block in the nyp net
:D
so cool.
n ytd stupid fryous send mi gore images at 12mn. tmd!
oh dis gore images are from the yishun mrt accident.
yes yes. first time see real muliated body.
lol.
stupid la. ppl r committing suicide via mrt train la.
so stupid. u wanna die dun affect others leh. end up alot of ppl late for work la.
shesh.
oh well.
my heart is smiling. u noe hu u r :D
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(Thursday, December 07, 2006-)
+10:35 PM]*
# lol.-
Today went out wif the guys.
too much to write.
i ate too much.
seoul garden.
pool.
long time nvr see them. its cool to see them again.
oh well. back to work.
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(Wednesday, December 06, 2006-)
+9:52 PM]*
# Ouch~-
Oh~~~~
my heart pain~~~~
poked 4 times liao
1. XXXXXXXXX
2. XXXXXXXXX
3. Superposition
4. Thevenin
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+7:27 PM]*
# Wat a day.-
ok today.
lessons as usual.
den waited for my 2 mei mei at yck mrt.
end up onli meeting hui min.
den travelled down to city hall. waited for ar mun.
these 2 ar... always late so it was my miscalculation to turn up earlier.
ate at pizza hut. sat n tok to them about almost everything.
den ar mun called huzi using my hp.
lol. huzi tgt tat i was dating her. LOL.
Anyway, after tat we walked around the place, i wanted to look for a new ring to replace my old one. but den too bad. no time had to rush back for cs tok. instead i ended up buying a notebook. now i dun have an excuse not to do work liao.rofl.
ok. went for cs tok. haiz. abit disappointed in somethings. i shalt elborate.
oh well. muz learn to forgive n forget. tiny matter anyway.
ok shall sign off here
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(Tuesday, December 05, 2006-)
+10:18 AM]*
# Omg.-
Boredom!
Tmd. ytd night. no show. working was a bore. wif 2 lil monkeys disturbing me, working was a rather difficult ting to achieve. Instead, i lazied around.
den ar. i decided to play maple again -.-
the new world of delphinus. zzz. tat was how bored i was.
i played
mage.
warrior.
dit.
now its time for bowman.
yes yes den my maple exp will be complete.
the pinnicale of stupidity.
Ytd recap:
skipped jacktan.(first time)
end up eating brunch wif del and teaching her 1222.
den in 1225, stupid banana chua make me redo my pcb board juz becoz of a stupid component overlapping.
nxt was prog. waliew. not saying anything about it.
den today. as in now, the onli gd thing worth mentioning is
boon. wearing his yellow long sleeve tee.
looks like modern bruce lee. BOON LEE. ok lame. hes missing his yellow pants.
tats all.
oh well.
will blog later
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(Sunday, December 03, 2006-)
+12:30 AM]*
# Demoralised-
ZZZ. STUPID COM PROG PROJ.
i have no clue on wat to do for it la.
stupid cher nva give us B&W instructions.
haiz.
oh well.
Study~ Study~
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(Friday, December 01, 2006-)
+12:02 AM]*
# nothing to blog~-
Today sch.
Wss.
Meet bert.
Gym.
Mac.
Home.
i dun feel like blogging.
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