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(Monday, November 13, 2006-)
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# pain-
I am feel veri sad. Heartbroken to be exact. today i shall hide nothing.
Look. let mi ask anyone of u. Izzit wrong to show concern for a fren? Izzit wrong to ask wats the matter when s/he feeling off?.
well, apparently dis way of thinking is quite outdated becoz i was called irritating for showing concern. Seeing someone everyday, does it make u feel taken for granted?
Correct me if i am wrong. But deres suppose to be a balance in the give n take rite. even so, i felt like i was giving n giving. sure. Some form of return will come back. Be it a thx, be it a smile. watever. but after tat, tat empty feeling. i believe ppl hu help alot becoz they give u dis sense of satisfaction. dis sense of completion. like you r one step closer to heaven. in a way.
Back to pt. I feel like crap. Crap beyond believe. I noe its selfish but every once in a while i would like some kind of repayment. Its kinda like at the end of it all, its all worth it. But the more i try, the more i get diss-ed.
Am i overdoing it? Tell me someone. I reli want to noe...
If a buddy daos u. den nvr tells u the reason. Dun tell mi u dun wanna noe wats goin on. dun tell mi u can juz let it slide. dun tell mi sooner or later u dun wanna noe wats happening. Its kinda against human nature. My nature if u will.
Someone tell mi my problem. Tell mi if being concern = irritating. If asking your buddy if s/he is feeling alright, den i am a irritating bastard. not worthy of your frenship. how ironic. One hu hates nothing. Hates me. Am i so detestable. Izzit tat i am spawned from the lowest form of discomfort?
Most of all, i am being used. yes cuz. i noe u will say tat. i feel tat... its becoming clearer... Shes still my buddy... tat i hope nvr have to lose her...
the story ends like this;
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