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(Thursday, September 28, 2006-)
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# Heavy heart-
I went to bed ytd wif a heavy heart. something tat i dun like to do. well, becoz of tat, i couldnt slp well... its easy. i couldnt stop tinking. it sux that i cant enjoy a gd nite's slp. it was never my intention to think so much about dis. well, some things are better to be laid out in the open. hmph... its so frustrating... i am confused. everything i ever believed in is once again tested. u noe dis sux alot. time n time again, my faith is being tested. when will it end? i cannot find something or someone tats true blue. everytime, i read stories of people whose believes and faiths are tested. well, i duno they do it... its so fake. no one can have tat kind of str. sure those are suppose to be stories but stories come from events or maybe one's exp? i duno... well, i once heard that the strongest n most powerful weapon a human has is his faith. his faith to believe in the people ard him. the faith to noe tat things will turn out alright if they do their best. unfortunately, things aint always pretty. its like somethings are better leaft unsaid. i dun wanna open up anymore. its silly. eventually, people will juz laugh at wat u r tinking about or even depise those logics, even though most of them have the similar tgts. Trust is something that i do wish to extend anymore at least for now. i dun noe hu r true to me... people hu truly wan to listen to wat i am have to say and gimme the feeling of security tat i yield so long for... apparently, tat is not possible. becoz ppl i meet nowadays dun understand wat i reli wanna say. a friend once told me, anybody can listen to u. a gd fren will listen to u. a close fren will listen to wat u r not saying. y? becoz they can feel you. they know wats plaguing ur tgts. onli one person is still able to do it. for tat, i am grateful. she knew wat i wanted to say but couldnt let it out. she knew tat when i am sad. i guess shes the onli one y i am doin dis n tat. she understands and gives mi the best input. well, tats her... :)
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