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(Wednesday, September 27, 2006-)
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# Frustration and Angst-
ok plz take dis as a self ranting session. i am like dam frustrated for no reason.
yes. i flows thru my mind. tat tgt. those words. those same things. watever i did, was selfish and is still selfish. but i cant help myself. i am dam pissed wif myself. i wan to tell ppl about it. but the more u tell ppl about it, their view of u changes for the worst. so i shall juz rant my anger here. wats up wif the mind? it runs wild? i am starting to entertain weird n dumb tgts. tgts like.... heh. aint gonna say here. its goin into my diary. not the blog. i cant believe i even tgt of those. wat kind of person m i?fuck u! wake up alredi. smell the dip shit of reality. it aint pretty. it wasnt pretty to be begin wif. man dis sux. its like blowing a gun thru the mind. my mind is filled wif desires. desires which are selfish and lustful. i am suppose to be mr nice guy. always laming. not caring for the world. how can tat be true? deres no such thing as nice guy anymore. u tink if u treat a girl nicely u r called a nice guy? piu! absolute rubbish! we all noe wat u wan. dun kid wif urself. u fucking bastard. look alright. stop tinking like dis. u wanna get slapped big time again? wanna go thru tat all over again? haha. looks like u like to get ur heart broken. so be it ba.
things tat dun kill u makes u stronger. hopefully dis time around it wun kill u. but i noe wat r u feeling. tat desire. tat lust. tat need. to do it. to succeed.
u noe wat hits u? reality. bang! not such a nice feeling eh?
dun expect life to be full of roses. u alredi lost ur faith once. the one u once worshipped so didnt help rite? lol dun tink about goin back dere becoz nothing gd will come out of it. u noe wat? u r juz a piece of shit. so pathetic. lol these kind of thing u muz ask ppl to do it for u? lol. how pathetic can u be? ppl do it for u on their own. no need u to tell. obviously, they r not reali gd enugh to do it for u. wats wrong? at least dere r ppl beside u... hu care for u... supposely. dun forget. ur world is ideal. it couldnt be better even if u tried.
ok. tats the end of the ranting session.
the story ends like this;
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