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(Saturday, September 30, 2006-)
+9:11 PM]*

# 3 Things That Wrecked My Mind.-

3 things. Let's begin.
1.The Dream.
I slept. The scene was NYP. It was all of a sudden that NYP became very strict. I was caught by the security guard for doin minor offenses like not wearing lanyard and littering. I was told to write my name on this list and my offence was there. It was rather simple to tell that it was a blacklist. The last offence was when I was exiting the building. I was the second level. I came to a block and there was a off-limits line. So i took a detour to the lower level. What happened was that the security guard caught me for apparently, i was trespassing. But I didnt recall doing anything wrong. So i was taken to a lorry outside. Weird but its my dream. Anyway, again, I was to write my name in the list. This time, my mum was there. I was shouting aimlessly,"I did nothing wrong!" My mum only shook her head. Then I asked her,"Do you believe me?" It was then she just blurted out: no. I was saddened. A shock just woke me from that nightmare. I sat up and whacked my head on the bed's celling. Ouch. I realised my face was hot and wet. I guess everyone knew what happened...

2.Maple Haunts Me.
Oh today I Received a call from my old maple fren, Jin. Well, he is someone who i met online. In mythheroes(MH), he was somehow a member. I watched him rise to one of the section heads of MH. Back then, I was also a Section head.(MH8) One of the guild leader's most trusted men. Well, at first, I liked MH. I leveled fast and was promoted quickly. Until I felt that the leader was getting on my nerves. His ways did not suit mine. The fights with SKT took a toll on the people under me. As much as it pained me, I left MH and took a considerable bunch of members along with me. I guess that was when MH started to drop. At that time, i saw MH as a bully. I saddened. Eventually, I found myself fighting MH and its beliefs. Enough history.
Jin called me. Yeap. He was one of those who left MH with me despite my warnings. Indeed a loyal person. He called and the first thing he told me was...
Hey Terry. Guess what? You're a legend.
-.- apparently my actions has caused MH to close down. what a waste of a 10 guilds.
Jin tried to psychoed me to go back to maple. Hes starting his own guild. Well, I wish him good luck. Maybe one day... :)

3.doubt.
Currently you can say that word dominates my mind. I don't want to talk about it. It should remain in my mind. Yup. Over time, it will pass and I will think of it as a silly thought.

well thats all.

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(Thursday, September 28, 2006-)
+12:50 PM]*

# Heavy heart-

I went to bed ytd wif a heavy heart. something tat i dun like to do. well, becoz of tat, i couldnt slp well... its easy. i couldnt stop tinking. it sux that i cant enjoy a gd nite's slp. it was never my intention to think so much about dis. well, some things are better to be laid out in the open. hmph... its so frustrating... i am confused. everything i ever believed in is once again tested. u noe dis sux alot. time n time again, my faith is being tested. when will it end? i cannot find something or someone tats true blue. everytime, i read stories of people whose believes and faiths are tested. well, i duno they do it... its so fake. no one can have tat kind of str. sure those are suppose to be stories but stories come from events or maybe one's exp? i duno... well, i once heard that the strongest n most powerful weapon a human has is his faith. his faith to believe in the people ard him. the faith to noe tat things will turn out alright if they do their best. unfortunately, things aint always pretty. its like somethings are better leaft unsaid. i dun wanna open up anymore. its silly. eventually, people will juz laugh at wat u r tinking about or even depise those logics, even though most of them have the similar tgts. Trust is something that i do wish to extend anymore at least for now. i dun noe hu r true to me... people hu truly wan to listen to wat i am have to say and gimme the feeling of security tat i yield so long for... apparently, tat is not possible. becoz ppl i meet nowadays dun understand wat i reli wanna say. a friend once told me, anybody can listen to u. a gd fren will listen to u. a close fren will listen to wat u r not saying. y? becoz they can feel you. they know wats plaguing ur tgts. onli one person is still able to do it. for tat, i am grateful. she knew wat i wanted to say but couldnt let it out. she knew tat when i am sad. i guess shes the onli one y i am doin dis n tat. she understands and gives mi the best input. well, tats her... :)

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(Wednesday, September 27, 2006-)
+11:14 PM]*

# My bdae lol.-

Woo~ At last bdae come liao! oh yea~ finally can take drivers' theory. alredi got thumbs up from dad. hehe. hmm it doesnt seem special la tat i grow older every year. duh~ if i dun, then its abit sad eh. well, i guess i have been recollecting alot of my past. well, i guess i have been living a gd life. generally gd lo.
yep.
n now... i am tinking of 17 things tat made it worth it to live for 17 yrs lol.
ok... here goes...
1)oh i lived a gd life.
2)i have gd parents(whether i believe it or not)
3)i have gd frens hehe dun wanna mention names
4)i live in singapore! yes ppl complain alot but deres alot of gd things about it
5)My com. without it, lol lets not think about it eh.
6)My hp.
7)I played maple. yes m gladed i played maple. y? built up my tolerance towards stupidity!
8)rice. yep. my main kinda of food.
9)sitcoms. yes i love watching idiots living out their lives.
10)education. y? i meet new frens. wow dere is a benefit to learning. lol
11)goin to mfss
12)goin to nyp
13)having a ps2.
14)people hu actually rmb my bdaeXD
15)people hu r in jc... lol u noe hu r. lol :P hu ask u go jc:P
16)taken up a life guard course(at least i can save u~)
17)Lastly, for being 17. XD

well deres alot of other things that i cant tink of rite.
but deres still alot~ anyone have any strong objections can always tag~ lol
bye~

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+12:46 AM]*

# Frustration and Angst-

ok plz take dis as a self ranting session. i am like dam frustrated for no reason.
yes. i flows thru my mind. tat tgt. those words. those same things. watever i did, was selfish and is still selfish. but i cant help myself. i am dam pissed wif myself. i wan to tell ppl about it. but the more u tell ppl about it, their view of u changes for the worst. so i shall juz rant my anger here. wats up wif the mind? it runs wild? i am starting to entertain weird n dumb tgts. tgts like.... heh. aint gonna say here. its goin into my diary. not the blog. i cant believe i even tgt of those. wat kind of person m i?fuck u! wake up alredi. smell the dip shit of reality. it aint pretty. it wasnt pretty to be begin wif. man dis sux. its like blowing a gun thru the mind. my mind is filled wif desires. desires which are selfish and lustful. i am suppose to be mr nice guy. always laming. not caring for the world. how can tat be true? deres no such thing as nice guy anymore. u tink if u treat a girl nicely u r called a nice guy? piu! absolute rubbish! we all noe wat u wan. dun kid wif urself. u fucking bastard. look alright. stop tinking like dis. u wanna get slapped big time again? wanna go thru tat all over again? haha. looks like u like to get ur heart broken. so be it ba.
things tat dun kill u makes u stronger. hopefully dis time around it wun kill u. but i noe wat r u feeling. tat desire. tat lust. tat need. to do it. to succeed.
u noe wat hits u? reality. bang! not such a nice feeling eh?
dun expect life to be full of roses. u alredi lost ur faith once. the one u once worshipped so didnt help rite? lol dun tink about goin back dere becoz nothing gd will come out of it. u noe wat? u r juz a piece of shit. so pathetic. lol these kind of thing u muz ask ppl to do it for u? lol. how pathetic can u be? ppl do it for u on their own. no need u to tell. obviously, they r not reali gd enugh to do it for u. wats wrong? at least dere r ppl beside u... hu care for u... supposely. dun forget. ur world is ideal. it couldnt be better even if u tried.

ok. tats the end of the ranting session.

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+12:18 AM]*

# oh yes!-

lol oh yes! i forgot to blog. at the topman shop, i was browsing thru the clothes. den suddenly a lady tapped my shoulder and asked me," excuse me, could u get mi a another shirt like dis?" LOL.
den i told her,"erm... i dun work here." LOL she was so ma lu lo. lol i was wearing a fcuk immitation t la. how to work in the store~
lol. ok juz tgt tat dis was worth blogging about

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(Tuesday, September 26, 2006-)
+11:52 PM]*

# wat a lousy movie~-

argh! my money wasted! miami vice sux sux sux! so stupid show! i cant believe i actually didnt walk out of the cinema! argh! wasted! @#&*(#$&^&@%^*! alot of bullets n sex~ tats all. toking... dun understand shit. camera? sux. so jerky. budget cut until so jialat. somemore four star review. sux. aiyo reli sux. i nvr felt so sux at a movie like dis b4.

oh yes bought a polo t today. lol quite happi about it.

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(Monday, September 25, 2006-)
+10:13 PM]*

# Heart Break? wat izzit it?-

hmm. i was tinking for quite awhile. wats a heartbreak? izzit when someone rejects you? when u feel veri depressed. sure we say heartbreak. but its being used too often. like many other words, they lose their effect. the meaning. its intended purpose for example, the word 'cute'. i see alot of ppl use it to describe almost anything. deres apparently onli 2 reasons for it. 1. lack of vocab. 2. the generalisation of the word. ppl 'spread' the meaning of it. ppl twist meanings. affects the english language. it feels veri uncreative. very inefficent. perhaps its lingo.
ok back to the topic. i wan to discover the true meaning of a heartbreak? when does it truly happen? y izzit called a heart break in the first place? i heard ppl say it. they duno wat is it. they feel it. they describe it. many things they associated it with. truly ppl who feel it, onli noes wat it means.hmm i heard frens describe it so well. like sword thru the heart, bullet thru the soul, shattered, etc etc. they can make it so poetic... so interesting and yet its true meaning is great sorrow, grief, or anguish. well, for me, i felt it before. it didnt feel gd. surely it felt reli bad. to me, it was like a fire tat burn everything instantly, leaving behind nothing but a barren wasteland. its like looking at something so beautiful at first but after its destruction, tat sad feeling tat something once so pretty, so breathe taking... gone. its reli saddening.

well. i will cont to discover the meaning of it. with different variations.

tats my view. y? becoz i'm dead bored.
oh well see ya~

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(Sunday, September 24, 2006-)
+11:03 PM]*

# Man. I am feeling down.-

Ok. dis sux. i guess i have been tinking too much again.

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+8:45 PM]*

# Wat man tat sux.-

ok. today its like dam sickening. at tkd, my instructor told me to teach dis lil kid. At first, i was ok wif it. But after a few mins, i got pretty frustrated. y? simple. he simply didnt wan to listen. his moves were half hearted and when i told him wats wrong, his face will turn from sian to even more sian. That really got my morale down la. i love to teach but cases like dis i feel veri sad la. my believe has always been i will help anyone as long as u wan to help urself. so i guess tat kid didnt wan to help himself. its been veri diff to teach la. so many times i wanted to stop teaching n tell him to sit oneside... a complete waste of my time.
anyway i saw footage from the tkd jr championships. lol. obviously sg didnt win anything. well, we were close to winning but of cuz our best wasnt enugh. wa. my good old pal come out wif a scotland gf. LOL. stupid sir. anyhow tok cock. lol. yup.
ok maybe i will blog again tonite ba. see ya~

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(Saturday, September 23, 2006-)
+12:55 AM]*

# bored.-

well. its a boring day. at least i managed to finsh playing disgaea 2! oh yea~ the ending is so shocking la. hmmm i guess i will play it again. lol. try to unlock alt endings. yup. disgaea is known for its humour. so ea ending sure make u laugh one. lol. anyway, other then tat, my day is rather boring.
i decided to start a training schedule! muz be self-discipline! muz become fit! if not, will die at archery PTs. LOL. okok heres my schedule:
morning: 30 sit up(+10)
30 push up(+10)
afternoon:50 sit up(+10)
30 push up(+10)
evening: 100 sit up(+10)
night:500 skipping(+100)
100 sit up(+20)
100 push up(+20)
the numbers in brackets means if i find it too easy, i will up it by the numbers in the brackets. yup. hopefully will keep goin up. become fitter. lol. tml start! first time wake up, roll out of the bed. and start wif push ups. lol. okok
signing out~ bye~

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(Thursday, September 21, 2006-)
+11:25 PM]*

# phew~ a day out wif del.-

OK... phew~ i juz came back from a date wif del. lol i managed to survive it. oh yea~
hmmm i gonna blog it down. ok dis may take awhile so bear wif me.
ok. i was about to set off for orchard mrt. when i received a call from del. apparently she overslept n missed her morning appointment. so she called mi n we met up at 1345. hmmm could have met earlier but she wanted to laid on the bed. -.- ok. den we took the bus over to city hall. actually our intended destination was orchard but she got the buses wrong n instead took 2 buses n a train to orchard. hmmm. at least i learnt my lesson. always take 7 to go to orchard lol.
after the train ride, went to pepper lunch n try it out. its an interesting place. they serve u a grill wif ur uncooked meat. den u suppose to cook it on the spot n makan. something like seoul garden but wif portable grills. lol. it was veri oily la. i gave del my corn but it didnt noe dere was a whole slab of butter in it LOL. den she forced mi to eat her dou ya. hehe. i ate 2 pieces n stopped. lol XD ok den we headed down to the shaw house. den eh tio stopped by some of del's buddies hu were doin some surveys on christianity. even though i was not like into religions... i listened to wat they had to say and i realised something. most christian are veri devoted. ok... den reli went to shaw house. n watched the banquet.
well, the banquet was veri draggy! scenes were tooooo slow. even the fighting scenes. they were like so... retarded. blood spilled like siao. so much so del couldnt eat her popcorn n i was compelled to hold n eat the popcorn. zzz. ok the banquet wasnt so bad. i tink the gd pt about it was the morals n its storyline. its veri interesting. anyway, the last part was the banquet and the whole cast started killing ea other. lol. how predictable. anyway, duno hu killed the empress at the end. juz showed the dagger goin thru her. n she fell slowly... towards the ground. i guess it was too emphasize the show's draggy-ness.
ok, afterwards, went shopping. lol yup. first time in a long while since i went shopping wif a gal. yea... ok after a long struggle over a set of sunglasses, we decided to eat pastamania at cineleisure. wa... tat was the worst la. i was forced to eat her saghetti becoz she traded it for my lil piece of garlic bread. it was so unfair! we were both so full! she wans mi to grow fatter! anyway, we were both so bloated tat we decided to sit dere for awhile b4 taking off.
yep. eh while sitting at the busstop, decided to do a lil snap shot. yup.
so... here is it.

well its nothing special. but its a nice pic. lol juz glad i got to spend the day wif her.
oh well. tired~ tio suaned until tired. i shall sign off here
bye~

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(Wednesday, September 20, 2006-)
+8:13 PM]*

# WOOHOO!-

Oh yea~ alright! soli for the late entry but i was too happi tat i forgot to blog. lol. i passed all my modules! WOOHOO! i had my doubts about 2 of the modules. but heng heng they turned out alright. i got Cs for them. yup. ok. i am like so phew~~~~~~~~~~~~~lol.

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(Monday, September 18, 2006-)
+11:02 PM]*

# World biasness-

Ok. lets me talk about reality shows. u see i have been watchin ang mo realtiy shows lately(eg. america's nxt top model). well, i realised something, the asian always get kick out veri early in the game. n its like every show they make it a pt to put an asian in. y? to make a pt tat asian are inferior to them? or izzit to prove it? or izzit actually to give us a chance to prove ourselves. hmmm. in general asians are humble while ang mo are more proud, more willingly to show off their talents and wealth. well, i conclude tat it actually boils down to confidence lvl. ok let mi give u a scenerio. in a sg sec sch, the teacher ask for a volunteer to ans a qxn. if s/he is lucky, s/he will get 1 or 2 volunteers. in an americian sch, u get the whole cls rising their hands. hmmm tat makes mi tink. y is dere such a diff? izzit becoz of the way we r brought up? or izzit becoz tats the way we r? well, i wun get answers by asking myself. maybe if i observe ppl more, i will get my ans. hmmm oh well. tats enugh of self crapping.

till nxt time~ bye~

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+1:01 PM]*

# Another boring day.-

yup. ytd was a boring day. woke up at 1030. waited for tkd to start. well, training started at 1300,which isint my regular training time. y? my chief instructors is away. away on competition wif my gd fren competing on a world cls lvl. wow. lol. i didnt wan to go. not to aus. kinda not so keen on goin dere again. i rather go japan or korea. hmmmm veri interesting countries both of them. well, i guess i better save alot of money if i wanna go dere. lol. anyway, the tgt of goin oversea without my parents... well juz have to wait. ah i dun wanna go into tat again. anyway, well i will be rooting for my gd old fren dere n aussie, sluggin it out wif the ang mo for the championship lol. anyway, ytd's training was not wat my chief instructor would normally do. today we did circuit training and alot of kicking technique. when i had toexcute the flying side kick, i nearly twisted my ankle. y? land on the the wrong part of the foot. heng heng nvr tio sprain. lol. oh well. everything will go back to normal nxt wk... i guess. oh well back to juz lazing around. hopefully i will blog again tonite.

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(Saturday, September 16, 2006-)
+9:40 PM]*

# haiz... job at our age? izzit gd?-

ok... today i spend my time looking for a job. well, i was tinking... getting a job at my age. izzit reli necessary? i wonder... y? becoz during the holis, everyone scamppers to look for a job. its not like its a must rite to have a job rite? well, the onli reason i wanna get a job is becoz of the money. extra income can get mi alot of cool stuff n do alot more cools tings. but sometimes, the work juz isnit worth it. well, tats wat i tink... ok... some may argue tat doin jobs, like waiters or promoters, will allow u to meet diff kind of ppl in the process. well, the bad ting is tat most of the time u will meet bad customers wif lousy att. tats wat i dun like about 'meet ppl' jobs. well, for now, i am not tat despo for a job since i got a cca which occupies 3 whole days of my weeks. which kinda sux becoz i wanna do other tings.

well, life's like tat.

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(Friday, September 15, 2006-)
+11:49 PM]*

# Wat?-

Ok... today, i realised the ulgy side of singaporeans... well, at least when it comes to commuting. ok. lets see. i was on mrt n dere were 2 empty seats. first, dis old man sat down. den a rather tired looking lady sat nxt to him. but dis young girl wanted to sit down as well and apparently was related to the old man. she shook her head at the old man. den the old man told tat lady, " excuse me, my wife was goin to sit dere." wow. it was rather ironic la. old man marry the young girl? n she didnt look sg-ean. ya... anyway, the lady was like ok... nvm let her sit. i was rather angry at the old fart. can u not see tat some ppl need the seat more than ur precious wife? ok nxt. while standing n holding on to the hanging tings(forgot wat they r called), dis old lady suddenly came in all black faced. started shoving her way to the empty spot in front of me. she was like... so rude. i was nearly shoved off balance and she didnt even say soli. she even glared at me for a few moments. wtf? ok tats not the worst. at the amk stop juz as when i was about to walk out of the train. the same aunty again shoved her way in front of me juz so tat she could get out of the train a second earlier. reli. sg-ean have no manners. dis is not the worst situation i encountered today. at the entrance of the station, as i was walking out, i was greeted by dis reli balloon tummy man. dis guy was trying to walk to the oppo side of the entrance. while everyone was walking in n out of the station, he had his hand out and he waved it like he was telling everyone of us to make a path for him. zzz. wats worst is tat he went shosh shosh! den tsked at ppl when they didnt make way for him. hello?! plz correct ur direction b4 tsking at me. if i didnt noe how to control my temper, u probably be dead on the floor.
den at the bus stop. i was suddenly confronted by a rather plumb woman. she asked mi for money. 0.0 commuting in sg can be veri unpleasant. not becoz of the service but the ppl hu r using the transports.
well, dis is all tat is worth blogging about today. bye~

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+12:33 AM]*

# Hmmm...-

well it takes a gd fren to wake me up.... u noe hu r u la... i dun wanna mention ur name. ltr ur head swell until so big... ok... anyway thx. yup. cool eh. ok!
today archery. sux. morning wake up. onli mi n randy turned up. wtf? den mornign run... zzzz... how i loathe running... ok... den shot abit... den went home bath came out n meet the rest. applied for a job at shop n save... suppose to call today. but no response. so nxt! lol. okok. i end here ba... too lazy to blog. lol

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(Thursday, September 14, 2006-)
+12:11 AM]*

# Y muz be like tat? cannot be like dis?-

I juz dun understand my parents. the rest all say yes. mine? say no? wtf? i wonder why... out of all the parents, mine had to say no. seriously screwed in everyway possible. y cannot? fuck. juz dun understand. alot of crap was said n of cuz i didnt buy it. how to buy crap? lol? not even funny la. i muz face it. i was borned into a infexible family wif strict rules. change plans becoz of me? i feel reli paiseh la... wtf... i duno wat to say... except i lost money today at guo's place...

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(Tuesday, September 12, 2006-)
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# dam. its juz not fair.-

Fuck. I am juz fucked... i dun understand y she is so fucked. sure shes my mum... i tried my best not to hate her. soli... i juz cannot. i juz wanna go msia wif my frens. is tat such a problem? i dun understand her. man dis sux. i felt as if i let everyone down... i mean i was suppose to organise the date n everything. n all becoz of decision. i wun speak to her again. its like... i dun care anymore. as far as i am concerned, she onli does wat in her best interest. i am soli... i dun wanna try anymore. i hate the way she tinks... she tells mi i am too young... wat about the rest? they are like the same age as me n they can go? n i cant? wat is dis? its like when she says i wan u to study becoz i wan u to have a gd future. plz. the nxt day, she tells mi u muz study so tat u can support ur parents at the end of the day. ... u noe how sad tat sounds? how contradicting tat sounds. i juz duno how to express dis sadness and anger i feel towards her. sure... del told mi tat i cannot hate my mum. but i juz cant help myself anymore... if i am driven to madness... tat drive would be her. to be honest my curfew is at 1030. omg its like too early. sometimes i wish tat i was borned in another family. some ppl envy my family. y? becoz they say i am 'rich'. no. the ones tat i envy are the ones tat can trust ea other. the ones tat love one another... someting tat i nvr felt for along time... reli long... now i juz feel like crying... the fact is my mum doesnt trust me. lol... its kinda sad. the ppl i let down... i let down so bad... i;m soli... soli for being so enthu without any permission from dear oh mum. it pains mi to do dis... i juz cant... ARGH!!!!! dam dam dam...

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(Saturday, September 09, 2006-)
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# Pretence-

Ok juz a random tgt. i juz feel veri faked. veri bluffed. i duno y. its the insecure feeling i get everything i tink of such things. maybe i reli have nothing to do. i duno.anyway, i juz feel veri backstabbed. veri left out. dun worri ppl. becoz of the lag of good feelings. well, i felt dis way many times b4. ea time makes mi tink of the tings ppl to do... the tings ppl hide or try in vain to hide. its kinda funny how we try to cover up our lil secrets. how we flaunt our power so that our weakness are shown unknowingly. its when we shut our mouths and open our ears that we learn the flaws all of out. its like a saying goes: listen more n tok less, your world will expand. well i start to believe dis qoute when i tried shuting my mindset and mouth. it reli does expand. u see things in a more detailed perspective.

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+8:46 PM]*

# At last! Its Over!-

Yes! At last! Its over! My competition phew! okok... overall i did rather ok... yup. i'm kinda happi wif my result. 591/720. not bad ok. lol walao. anyway i tink the competition is abit bias since novice shooters are suppose to be first time shooters(their first time competing) well its not true la. some ppl are 2 or 3 timers. walao. its so bias that they allow ppl to shoot 20m which is considered easy.i reli dun like it la that the citeria for a cat is so... open... yup. anyway i came out 13th out of 32. lol. not bad eh. for reli first time shooting in a comp. i rmb seeing 2 handicapp shooters. wa not bad leh. they shoot dam pro la. 1st rd i heard they shot 320+/360. well at tat pt, my thought of money was gone. lol. 100 bucks fly out of the window. oh well. i didnt expect much la. so tats cool. 13 not bad lol. okok. in NYP3, which is in randy's team(I am NYP4), theres dis guy. well... lets juz say hes not reli trustable. we waited for him. my team cap called him at 730 n he said he was still at home. wtf? we were suppose to meet at 715 n hes like still at home. ok he came eventually. met at mac. had breakfast. the worst ting was that he said tat on sun he not be able to make it for the team shoot. wow. its like so fucked la. randy was angry. his expression was wa... better not cross him. anyway during the whole time at mac he hardly said anything. well i guess he was reli angry. i mean i can understand. if either of my teammates back out like tat. i, too, would be dam pissed. heng heng, they r nice guys. lol.

ok. i realised something on my way back in the bus. well, alot of old people, when i mean old, i mean 60+, are trying to dress young. ya... one exmaple is today on the bus. i saw dis old lady wif saggy skin and all. char of a kind of a granny, wearing a veri sparkling tee n the words on it were sexy me. i was like uhhhh.... ok... tats weird. ok another example is yesterday on my way back from amk. i saw dis old lady. she was dressed up like a jap sch girl.-.- yes imagine ur granny wearing jap sch U. oh dear... luckily for all of u, u onli imagine. i saw the horrible clash of generation. the worst ting was tat she was revealing her thighs as she was veri sexy... -.-'''''''''''. ya... tats my exp from the past few days. sure. u can say tat they wanna feel young. well sometimes, old ppl juz take it over the top. too much. n older people tell kids to act ur age. lol speak for urself. oh well. dis world gets more interesting everyday.

oh well tats all.

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(Friday, September 08, 2006-)
+6:55 PM]*

# 2 days passed.-

Okok. I will recap 2 days in dis entry. yesterday went for training. 9 to 4... ya.. coach changed the timing again. waliew. dis time in the afternoon. after tat went to meet yx to play pool. while waiting for him, i tio shot by one of the birds. yes my right hand took the shit. lol. okok kinda funny for ppl to hear dis. anyway, i realised it was the same arm tat tio shit in p6. lol. guess i muz be some kind of birdshit magnet. anyway its lucky ok? haha. lol ok he was veri picky wif his hair dye... anyway, after pool had dinner wif him. den went home.

today nothing much.

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(Wednesday, September 06, 2006-)
+11:30 PM]*

# Argh.-

wa i hate it. dis sick is reli getting to me. its alredi been like 4 days n i am still sick. my competition tio extension to sat n sun. its like dam stupid la. aiyo my hand dam pain man... lol. oh well tats wat u get for training i guess. anyway, deres trainnign tml... duno whether can tahan the heat. plzzzz tml no sun. zzz sometimes i wonder y the training time is so hiong. 9 to 3. somemore is when the sun is up la. sianz. oh dear. feeling veri sian now. i duno wat to do... i'm juz glad that the competition is coming.. yup dun have to train until so jialat. came home wif near sunburns... or alredi tio oso duno lol. i need to rest... oh dear... lol oh well

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+8:18 PM]*

# sg idol-

hmmm sg idol 2... its more of a popularity contest than a singing contest. is the idol contest reli a singing contest? becoz we base our vote on whether we like them or not.

anyway juz heard john... can onli say. wow... jaw agaped... yea... as good as the orginal la... his eyes were so into it. it was perfect. lol

hmmm everyone like dam gd la... i tink paul or jasmine will be out. john can nvr go out lol. hes too dam gd. yup tats wat i tink.

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(Sunday, September 03, 2006-)
+11:20 PM]*

# argh sick n bored-

waliew...woke up dis morning feeling veri sick. den realised tio flu.... oh dear tat sux... decided to slp again... woke up worst... got fever... spent the whole day sleeping or chatting... ya... i'm afraid tml cannot go for training... oh dear... dis sux... hate being sick. the inability to do things u wan to... to eat watever u wan to... sian shit man... fever sux... makes it too hot to sleep as well... sian...

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(Saturday, September 02, 2006-)
+8:12 PM]*

# Tough day.-

wa~ woke up at 730. do wat? prepare go train. yup. den reached liao. set up bow. i didnt realised 20m so tough i shot so many arrows. some of them went stray. lol yup. i had to go behind the range to retrieve my arrows. ya... its not a nice exp becoz its like ppl hardly go dere n its so dam unmaintained lo. yup. anyway. at around 1+, i shot more arrows behind the board. i felt my strength fading... its not from the shooting... something is draining my energy. anyway reach home, whole body ache den decided to sleep. woke up worst. body ache worst den coughing now oso.... lol dis is lame. forced fed some medicine... oh dear. tml still got tkd how to tahan. oh dear...

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+1:14 AM]*

# Wow~-

ok. veri sian nothing to do dis friday. kinda bored. but nxt wk i gonna kick in gear again. got competition. aiyo. somemore so little time to train. coach press training until so exhausting... training on sat mon wed thur den the comp is on friday. waliew. i guess dis is wat they meant by committed lo. ok la. juz do it. probably get a gd kick out of it too. ar. now to start planning for my holi. hmmmm first, comp. den find work. den look for slots of time to enjoy. do the following: fishing, sleeping, shopping, cycling, kite flying, pooling, bowling, shooting. wow~ okok. now juz need to schedule my holi. yup.

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